12/29/08

stayed home
didnt wanna get ready to go out
i was too lazy to shower
i helped ericson make a buddypoke
and he said
[19:08] gu3szwhoo: i love you jaddis
[19:08] gu3szwhoo: i appreaciate you
[19:08] gu3szwhoo: <3
-HAHAHHAHA
you better
:]

12/27/08-12/28/08

LOLOL!

12/27/08 - 12/28/08
-woke up PRETTY late today, when i was suppose to wake up around 9 -.-
today was william's lunch/birthday thing! things were pretty smooth, i got ready and called to make sure ppl could make it. when i was about to get my things and leave, i got into a huge argument with my parents -.- they assumed i had a "secret boyfriend" again -.- it was a pretty heated up conversation. after begging, kissing ass and just a bit of crying (LOL_) my stepbro drove me to glendale. i missed the lunch at bj's but i made it to the movies :] i wanted to watch curious cause of bengimen button, but we saw bedtime stories instead. it wasnt bad, and i love adam sandler :D after, we walked around for a while, and left to william's donut shop. he made us sandwiches! it was SOOO cute watching him make it, it was funny hahah. when it was around 9:30, yennie called me. she was alone outside a subway! and she was scared liek hell. i was suppose to meet her there. i was worried for her safety(cause cmon its freggin yen, she's small hot and rapebale) so i tried taking a bus to her! i sneakily left the donut shop, and went to a bus stop. and me being the brightest person out there, i TOOK THE WRONG FERGGIN BUS -.-. thank god i asked the driver where he was headed before the went far. while i went to the CORRECT stop, i waited for the LONGEST time, while talking to yennie on the phone. i was scared out of my mind! perverted ppl were honking cars, and weird mexican guys were sitting and looking at me. i was so scared, i was bout to cry -.- but luckily, yennie marifel and a few friends came in a car to pick me up<3 soo ferggin happy, i swear. we were suppose to go to a friend's party, but it got raided -.- so we drove around for a long time, and chilled at a friend's house. we played clues, card games and talked till 4 in the morning. there was funny dares, and a few farts HAHAHH we had bad jack in the box. i got dropped off home around 4:30, and since the gate was locked, i had to jump over it :P i called my lil sis, woke her up, and she unlocked the door for me. my parents didnt suspect a thing, i said i was back around midnight, someone's slickk?:]<3
i woke up the same day around 11, getting ready and left to pomona we visited relatives, and played with their pets. my stupid half sis got bitten on her face cause she made a puppy stand on its legs too much, haha loser. but she's fine :]
and HAPPY BIRTHDAY WILLIAM!
love you "boyfriend"<3

12/24/08-12/26/08

12/24/08
didnt really sleep,
woke up to lots of txts.
i was suppose to go watch 7lbs with yennie marifel vincent and ericson today!
but i canceled, then they cancelled, i felt like a major buzzkill >.> instead, me yennie marifel and william went to downtown! they convinced me to get out the house, and go with them :] i looked like CRAP. sweats, socks with flats, and not a stick of make-up. so we took dash B to downtown, and we got lost LOL! we walked 9+ blocks to find a metro bus we were actraully gonna take. it was sprinkling, and super cold too! but we found where we were going to, a piercing shop :] yennie and marifel got their bellies pierced! it was funny cause the man didnt let me take pictures it, so i hid the camera in my big old sweater, and recorded them :] althought my angles were crappy, i felt pretty slickkk hahaha. the peircings also looks extra sexyy on them :] even we got lost, it was cold, raining and everything, i couldnt be happier to spend my xmas eve with them hahaha, they made me feel muchhh better<3

12/25/08
woke up to 205874385 merry xmas's :]
because im chinese/vietnamese, we dont really celebrate. so i stayed home eating POUNDS of chocolate, and watch tv. i spent time with my family, and txted all day. me and my sisters were watching chronicals of narnia, and it was the part where the big ol lion died, but was rebirthed on the stone (because he was pure and sacrificed his life you know) it was my step sister's FIRST time watching it. so when the lion woke up she said "of course he's not dead, a cat has nine lives" LOLOL! wtf right?!?!?! hahah that seriously made my day. that's idiot hahah. and i gave her a nice badmitten set for xmas! she didnt like it -.- picky bitchhh. :]

12/26/08
txt
food
tv
tct
comp
clean room
txt
planning william's party thing for tomorrow :]

12/23/08

its almost midnight, and im still thinking about what happened a few hours ago
and at this point
i hate everything, and feel stupid
i feel stupid for loving a friend that treats me like shit
i feel stupid for letting her take advantage of me
i feel stupid for explaining why i think of her as a best friend
i feel stupid for allowing her to use me
i feel stupid for backing her up
i feel stupid for lying for her
i feel stupid for letting her step on me
i feel stupid for feeling like this
i feel stupid for keeping my feelings inside
i feel stupid for letting my feelings out like i did
i feel stupid for not mentioning this sooner
i feel stupid for trusting her, and have her let ppl in our business
i feel stupid for pretending everything was okay
i feel stupid for getting emotional
i feel stupid for my lack of control to stop crying like a bitch
i feel stupid for not knowing what i want to do next
i feel stupid for being so nice
i feel stupid for always apologizing
i feel stupid for laughing at everything
i feel stupid for writing all this down on the blog
i feel stupid for wasting my time cause no one reads my stupid blogs
i feel stupid for making myself feel worse
i feel stupid for having all these memories with her around my room
i feel stupid for tearing up at every memory i see
i feel stupid for letting this argument happen
i feel stupid for tryna hide how i feel about the incident for half the day
i feel stupid for pouring my heart out to my kind friends, and having them feel bad for me
i feel stupid for letting a friend try to help us
i feel stupid for doing this blog, cause ill most likely delete it later
i feel stupid cause i have so much more to say, but i feel this is pointless
i adore yennie and marifel for making me laugh, and forget about what happened for a few minutes
i love william and andrea for trying to make me feel better
i like these cheesy pick-up lines he sent me:
Did the sun come out or did you just smile at me?
I think I can die happy now, cause I've just seen a piece of heaven.
What's that on your face? Oh, must just be beauty. Here, let me get it off. Hey, it's not coming off!
[00:11] William Chyy: Jaddis...
[00:11] jaddisyyy: yeah?
[00:12] William Chyy: you smell
[00:12] William Chyy: lets take a shower together
00:13] William Chyy: come on.. am i not making u laugh at all!??!
[00:13] William Chyy: or any better?
[00:13] William Chyy: im like searchin on yahoo " how to make someone feel better"
[00:13] William Chyy: "how to cheer someone up"
and he made this one up himself!
[00:15] William Chyy: imma be up until u go down with me
i like that the best, cause it came from his heart

12/22/08-12/23/08

all i can saw is WOW.

12/22/08
jyc winter dinner/dance today!
so i went to jyc, and i had to leave early cause it was my daddy's birthday today too :]
i left RIGHT BEFORE the dance started, i was mad =/ i wanted to dance and have fun LOLOL grind alittle at a church(that's where the meetings take place). haha kidding, that's bad :P so when i got home, i threw a BITCH FIT. everyone was asleep! and the food wasnt even set -.- so i started yelling at everyone to wake up and eat. i also couldnt make it to gabriel's party thing too. but happy birthday buddy! :D so we had a good dinner, bought a NICE NICE mango cake that was suppose to be 55, but we got it for 39 :] my daddy got really nice gift's, and my mommy got sad cause she didnt get to open anything so we gave her the early christmas gift! my brother got her this freggin 300 dollar jacket, but we got her a REALLY nice diamond heart necklace! so we beat him hahahah :]]

12/23/08
WOW OHH WOW WHAT A DAY.
woke up pretty early cause marifel called
me her yen and ericson bussed it to verdugo to go to marifel's practice
we then went to a friend's house and GOT PERMISSION to have marifel shower there. some ppl showed up, yelling occured. crying occured and emotions errupted. a whole new side of me emerged, and according to the ppl aroudn me, they thought it was a turn on LOLOL. i cried like a bitch, and a part of my heart broke off, i broke down for a while. true feelings came out, and im GLAD that i confronted her. this whole situation is stupid, and we're both jealous. i wonder who gonna admit it first? and I KNEW WHAT SHADY MEANT! there's like a million definitions to that annoying word. and yes, i like my superWOMEN pose :] and my running mascara made me look like "hello kitty", friends got me laughing<3 after that stupid thing, i had fun on the bus home, and at the park. so screw this. im not the one letting everyone in our buisness, and you STAYED IN THE FUCKEN car. i thought you were heated? dont stay behind that shit, and say it TO ME. be a real women. i had a good day at the end, and i dont think im gonna be the one to say sorry this time.YENNIE AND MARIFEL gave me a sweater today! they said it was a christmas gift, we all had matching ones! i was flattered. at hte end of the day, i found out that it was given for free during the JYC DANCE! LOLOL and almost everyone from the dance has the SAME sweater! hahaha i still love you guys! even if we're kinda cheap sometimes, love you ladies<3
i need a new bestfriend, applications open.

12/17/08-12/21/08

12/17/08
freshman dance!
i wore my ugly link crew shirt today (manditory) even if a few ppl didnt -.-
i got excused from 3 and decorated the gym for the freshmans :]
it was fun, i cleaned tables, and wiped floors. that's when i realized what big PIGS ppl at our school are. THEY NEVER CLEAN UP AFTER THEMSELVES. lil bitches. so yeah, we hung lights, shiny balls, posters, and everything. once the bell rang for 4th, a few ppl came. more ppl showed up than i expected! lol the music was alright, not really that god, but everything worked out good. me and marifel were PIMPIN jeannie out! nobody danced, so we pulled out some scared freshmans and made jeannie dance with them. she WORKED THEM. im sure a few things popped hahah.
there's some pictures
and EMBARESTTING vidoes :P
so they're not going up :]

12/18/08
jyc today!
i baked cupcakes for erickson, and he didnt even take the leftovers home -.-
i also walked home in the cold!
but someone nice offered to walk with me too :]
ohh and...

BUY T-SHIRTS FROM ME AND ALINA! :DD
we started our own online clothing company,
we were on the school news paper,
and so far
everything's going smoothly
so help support us by buying a t - shirt?
:]
its called ilol! clothing :]
here's a few pics of it :D





12/19/08
last day till winter break :]
so im still very sick
today we get to wake up an hour later to school! :D
instead of taking the bus, i got a ride from alina :] spent my 1st in yennie's class, and her teacher was super nice. she brought her family into the class too :] after a while, we went to marifel's class. we took some pics, and i got an ICE BALL thrown at me -.- for 2nd, me and yennie stayed outside on the benches of the tennis room eating chocolate, and tried to take naps hahah. lunch was alright, i couldnt find a person i was looking for though. i stayed with yennie and marifel during 3rd too. we freeloaded their food, and played cards :] afterschool, i stayed in the tennis room with andrea william amy kelly alina richard yardley and phillip :] we played outburst and waited for kenneth to pick us up, and take us to andrea's. me her and william planned a christmas party there :D kenneth came pretty late with q, and we went to vons to buy desert, chips, and chicken for ken and q -.- lol we ordered 9 pizzas, and i TRIED to pay the cashier with 15 dollars of change, but he didnt accept it LOLOL the party was fun, we had karaoke, white elephant, and lots of games to play. i got a HUGEEE hallow penguin chocolate as my elephant gift, i stoled it from andrea, and she stole it from richard :P it was FUN FUN FUN, we took pics, and a few videos hahah. we got home around 1 am, and i knocked outt.
ill be posting pics soon :]
ill miss you sunland ppl<3

12/20/08-/12/21/08
stayed home
watching tv
i LOVE PETERPAN<33
not the animated one, but the human versoin. peter honestly made me melt, and wish i had a boyfriend =/
im gonna start my boy hunt this winter break! im tried of being lonely >.>
so i took naps, and ate 9384753984572 mini twix the WHOLE 2 days
i attempted to go out saturday night,
but plans didnt work -.-

12/12/08-12/16/08

so ive been super busy, and whenever im online
i only have time to reply to messages/comments
and go on mobsters or mafia wars for a couple of minutes to spend my money :P

12/12/08-
i woke up late! =OOO fawkkkk. the raining was SOO loud, it over powered the ringing of my phonw alarm -.- so i had to wake up my SUPER GRUMPY GRUMPY GRUMPY stepsister, and made her take us to school. i was rushed to get ready in 20 mins, so i brushed my teeth, washed my face, threw on a mustard ugly sweater and used a long cloth thingy to turn it into a scarf LOL eveybody asked where i bought it hahah. i was surprisingly on time! i arrived when the bell rang, and went to the restroom to fix my face. my classes were alright, i felt like shit the whole day though. when i got home, some unexpected guests showed up at my house! we stayed up watching amy nam's AMAZING singing videos, and joked around alot. near midnight, we decided to make cupcakes and french fries! lol fatties. around 1, my mommy invited them to sleepover hahah. it was crazy funny :]
pic:
jeannie on far right, kinnerd in middle :]



12/13/08-
woke up to a scary face looking at me! apparently, i was the last one to wake up-.- and according to alina i smile when i sleep-.- and SNORE too! but she said when people snore, it means they're having a great sleep :] and i did! before loud talking woke me up -.- so we were chilling at my house, and i gave yennie a happy birthday call :] she invited me to go eat with her family for her birthday. so as i showerd and got ready, my friends stayed with me, giving opinions on what to wear hahah. i was dressed casual, with cute laced heels, but flats to go to her house with. around 5 30, they walked me to the bus stop (no ride =/) and waited till i got on the bus. i gave yennie my birthday present to her! it was a sexy sliky cheetah print LOW cut blouse ;] i would of kept it for myself, but i dont have enought breasts to fill it in yet -.- yen's a LUCKY asian. the food was great, and AFTER we finished eating, marifel finally shows up LOL she was just in time for the cake. marifel bought her a REVEALING party dress, and she's gonna save it till we go "clubbing" together. but im not gonna go with them, standing next to her with that dress, she's gonna take all the guys -.- hahh<3

12/14/08-
woke up PRETYYY early, and started on my homework. i finished my ap. physics hw, and it wasnt that bad. h history is simple to me now, i actually dont hate ms. churchill anymore haha. am. lit sucks. as a procrastinator, i STARTED my "great gatsby" essay that's due tomorrow =/ i kept getting distracted, ESPECIALLY since there was pistachio ice cream to eat<3 my babe helped me with my essay too :]

12/15/08-
PIECE OF S:LGJH*)#IWLK%H*OILKT I WOKE UP LATE AGIAN! this time, i didnt even have enough time to get my clothes. i just wore a marshall football sweater(friend's) that i wore to sleep with to school -.- because it was another school's sweater, i tried my hardest to hide it with a scarf i wore LOL didnt work. 1st was shit, i started feeling sick. 2nd was ehhh, i missed andrea =/ and i got excused from 3rd! i helped my fellow link crew members to spread the news about the freshman winter wonderland dance! so me, marifel and jeannie walked around school to inform freshman classes about it :] although we finished early, we went into other rooms that had no freshmans to announce the news anyways. hoping the person we were looking for was in there LOL we're losers. jeannie then asked mr. driscol if she could be in link crew, and he accepted her! :D now she's gonna back her ass all up on me during the dance hahahha. i also joined link alert! and i have a freshman student that im suppose to look out for :] im gonna help him with his grades, and make sure he's on track with his homework. im gonna get him out of class on thursdays! arent i a sweetheart? :] LOLOL
ME AND ALINA GOT OUR T-SHIRTS TODAY!
we started this clothing company, made designs, and go them printed on shirts!
thye're FINALLY mailed to us! :DDDD
here's the website to it :]
http://lolclothing.bigcartel.com/

we're planning to wear it tomorrow, and pass out shirts to people who already pre-ordered them<3
im REALLY REALLY sick=/

12/16/08-
me and alina planned to match today :]
i wore my yellow and gray LOL shirt, with gray skinny jeans and black and silver checkered vans. alina wore her green and purple LOL hsirt, with purple skinny jeans and black and silver checkered vans with laces. we were tryna advertise our shirts :] i brought more candy to sell today! ive been forgetting them, and ppl's been bugging me about it. me and marifel managed to sell everything today LOL. 1st period was alright. garbriel hasnt been making it to school, and he's usually the person that gets me laughing during my classes. ESPECIALLY 3rd! i miss that punk. i LOST MY VOICE. i sound like a man. a very raspy/dieing man. some say it sounds pretty seductive(thanks william), but others just say its kinda cute -.- afterschool, william came OUT OF NOWHERE and starts YELLING AT ME for NO REASON. that pissed me off which caused me to yell back, KILLING my voice even more. when he noticed the angry look in my face, he said sorry and started to hug me, and say sorry. he wouldnt let go, and i tried to scream out "sexual harassment" hahha. then i untangled out of his skinny arms and went on the bus. he called me on the freeway too! apologizing, and explained to me his IDIOTIC reason for yelling -.- that guy loves me hahah<3

12/4/08

havent been on since forever,
but i got the chance now :]

well,
i didnt go to school because...
i flew to SACRAMENTO today! :DD
hahha, it was my very first time on a plane, and i panicked like a lil bitch.
there was 4 ppl from our school that was picked to go on a trip to sacramento, it was for a day, round trip and paid for. my wonderful wonderful counselor ms. alacron (love this lady) recommended me to go :P it was me, jeannie, robyn and shant, with our supervisors bj and brianna :] shant couldnt make it though. i woke up at 4 30, got ready, and left to get to the burbank airport at 6-.- during the wait to go on our plane, all i could do was think of all the TERRIBLE things that would happen to us on the plane, which made me super nervous. while the plane started, i just started to sit back, and grab onto the arm rest REALLY REALLY tight, but when we got wayy up into the air, i felt better. it was kinda like a kiddy rollercoaster :] so we went to the state capital, where our governor arnold schwarzenegger's office was. his office was guarded by this security, and there were ropes al around it. when we passed by it, some lady went inside, so me and jeannie ran to look inside hoping to take a cheap peak of him, no luck. we also had many failed attempts to try and talk to him haahah. we took pictures outside the door and with his name plate thing LOL we took a tour around the place, and attended a legislative meeting. questions were asked about the new Career Technical Education, and we were on t.v.! LOL well you can only see our lil faces and half our bodies but STILL! we were also looking for eye candy, but no luck, there was some pretty cute black guys there though! hahahh, and bj fell asleep behind us cause it got BORING, and he was snoring and snorting like CRAZY. me and robyn tried our hardest not to crack up, it was hard. so yeah, after we ate, blah blah blah blah, watched the elderly choir sing, took pictures, walked around, then got back to the airplane. the trip back was kinda bumpy, and kept me on my toes, but we had a safe trip. since i arrived at the airport at 4, i couldnt make it to the JYC meeting-.-. i heard it was boring, and william missed me :P
- there's alot of pics, but ill post them later, i lost m chord -.-

BUY CANDY FROM ME AND MARIFEL
its for our christmas fund :]

pics :]

11/18/08

wow,
i was suppose to blog everyday,
but too busy
and i still need to do hw,
so ill just update on a few things :]

so lately,
something crazy has changed me
im not paying attention as much anymore (YES, i actraully pay attention... sometimes :P)
i may ignore some ppl by accident
id be looking down ALOT more lately,
also avoiding phone calls from certain ppl
and i just seem WAYY out of it when seen
its cause... I GOT UNLIMITED TEXTING! :D
hahah
freggin love it! cant believe its so fun!
its all i really do now.
wanna know something crazy?
i even texted in the shower :PPP
i have an explanation though!
my friend needed a person to talk to,
i felt really really dirty
so i placed my phone in a zip-lock bag,
and took it with me while showering :P
and it work! :D

11/15/08

i woke up to about 12 missed calls today!

it just buggs so much when ppl call after midnight, cause they know im sleeping! but they wanna bug me anyways -.- well, for some, idontmind, but those calls were from mean ppl >:l. it was around 12:30 in the afternoon when i woke up, and i felt like SHIT. i was suppose to wake up around 6 so i can jogg around lincoln park so i can get some execise. but i always wake up late -.- and that's been the same excuse for the past few months, blahhhks. so i was helping my mom clean up the house today, and EVERYTIME she called my name, she said "heidi" instead of "jaddis". at first, i didnt mind, but after the 2304723805 time, it just bugggggged. while i was watching tv, i went to get some cereal. and i got a HUGE bowl of milk, and when i poured my special k fruits and yogurt cereal, only crumbs came out -.- stupid heidi, she had some yesterday, and go too lazy to throw the box away, so she left a little for me -.- i was on youtube, tryna look for new music videos, and dog just licked my toes, hahah :P its soo gross when she does that, but i love my dog :]<3 around 6, my half-sis mei came home, and pretty much MADE me go get ready, and pick up my lil sister at americana -.- she saw the varsity concert! but first, we went shopping somewhere at rosemead and got some clothes, and i bought a early bday gift for kin! :] so yeah, we walked around glendale, got some auntie anne's pretzels :D. while in the car, we stopped at a red light, and the car next to us was filled with latino guys. out of nowhere, they started acting like DOGS, and hollered at us. it was SOOO loud and embarrassing cause my sisters were there! so i gave them my favorite finger. blehks, that's just DISGUSTING.

i made a typo on a comment given to ceejay,

so HI CEEJAY! :]

11/14/08

my FIRST blog :]

ive always wanted to start a blog, but never really had the time to.... until now! :D

i dont actually expect anyone to read this, its just another way to express myself :]

so i woke up LATE today =l

alina called me around 6:30, RIGHT when the stupid school was was leaving, blehks. so i got up, bugged my older half-sis mei to give me a ride, and got to school around 8:30. first period was ehh, i SUCK at ap physics. i didnt even take regular physics or chemistry yet >.> but im getting a C in the class! but i feel really lost. we had a presentation/project during 2nd, and i was suppose to dress like an "agent", so i had these REALLY tight, white, peep toed, small heels on. they KILLED my feet, and since i was late to school, i forgot to bring extra shoes =/ but i had extra socks with me, lol. lunch was alright, i was told by ANOTHER person that im getting fat, rawrs. i wanna gain weight, but im gaining them at the wrong paces -.- 3rd was pretty fun/chill. we went to the library to check out books, and i got Midnight Hour Encores. after, we just had girl talks during class :] i stayed afterschool again, staying in william's 4th with andrea, yardley and kristal. me and drea tried making nicknames together, and we ended up calling ourselves paris and nicole, guess which is which! :P after 3, they left, and it was only me staying with william. we went to take some kind of survey, and saw marifel there! :] so we hung out, played games, laughed ALOT, and had fun :] while waiting for the 5:30 bus, WILLIAM took my heels, and THREW it out at the football field! he gave me a piggy-back ride so i can get it (cause i didnt wanna step on the grass), but he ended up DUMPING me on the field, and alvin took my shoe, and hit it everywhere with his popped tennis racket! so i took off my other shoe, and chased him around barefoot. that was the first time i exercised  in FOREVER :P after i got home, i went to comment alvin, and saw that he has a blog! and that's when i decided to start my own :]

i had fun today, took my mind off other things, and got me OVER something :D<3

ohhh, and i love you william! hahah

people think we're going out, but he's like the brother ive NEVER wanted :]